A girl who stumbled upon dream and reality. Because she's too lost to realize that she did not draw the line.
I was called by Janet for most all of the time, because it's my real name and because it was written on my birth certificate, but I would really appreciate it
if you call me
Sei. Because I'm too bored to hear 'Janet' and because I need some new sensation.
I was dropped to the Earth 14 years ago. I commit sins everyday because I'm not perfect and I'm just a normal human that's all.
I live in Indonesia but no, I'm not a pure Indonesian. My parents were from China but no, we can't speak those Chinese languages; whatever it is.
My life was full by emotional feelings; I'm a crybaby and I really can't help it.
I think I was loved by people around me. I do not appreciate what do you call by friendship because I believe friends will come and go as time goes by.
I do not trust my friend like I do trust them before, and this is the main reason why do I like to express my feelings through writings and not with words.
I love Korea, and I listen to K-Pop music. Cho Kyuhyun is my ultimate bias, KyuMin is my OTP and KyuHaeMin is my favorite OT3.
I write, I breathe, I walk, I talk, I hear, I jump, I dance, I do what normal people do.
What is the difference with me it's just that they know that reality and dream is different but I do not want to know.
And that is because I believe I could find my ideal boy through my dreams and reality is just too painful to deals with.
In which she believes there's no forever but there's eternal and eternity.
i am not good at writing. i really am not. if i'm a good writer, i'd probably have 5 fics posted out there. but the truth is; i only got 3 (or 4) fics out there that i've posted and the reader didn't reach 15 people. yes i know im pathetic, but who could help it anyway? im not the one who wants that and if i can, i really want to improve my writing skill.
the problem why i suck at writing is probably because i can't get into the feelings. simple things like this; has never crossed my mind. ever.
instead of writing those words, i'd probably wrote; i know i'm such a fail and you don't really need to give me that look.
and so its a very very big mistake when someone said that im a brilliant writer cos seriously; i am not. i just like to write but it doesn't make sense at all. i mean, my piece of work. sure, i write loads of things, but it would end up far from the word success. i dont know what the hell was wrong with my methods of writing but it was always the same. i write; half way to finish it-i'm screwed and i'd stop writing and the fic was left abandoned.
and in my usb, i actually have 37 fanfics there. some were halfway to finished and some were merely just the start of the story. and i believe only 3 or 4 of them were done written.
uhh, and for some reasons, although i know i didnt write that good, i really hated the fact that i wasnt included in one of the best writer of the english essay. duh, i know i didnt complete it until 35 sentences, but that's a long piece of work. T^T but well i really couldnt blame the teacher since it was entirely my fault. the teacher asked us to wrote an essay with the topics: "Different Wonders of the World" and the other one was something related to the most important invention. i chose the invention because i seriously dont know what are the facts about the different wonders of the world (yes, the 7 wonders) and at least i know something about Thomas Alpha Edison. although the things that i know are only; what did he invented and about his hardwork trying to invent a bulb with 99999999999999th failed tries. woops, im exaggerating it. but seriously, everytime that the Physics, Math & Chemistry taught the class for the first time of the new school year; they would promote Thomas Alpha Edison by storytelling his hardwork by trying to make the bulb with hundreds failed tries and that we should be like Thomas Alpha Edison and they created the motto "1% genius and 99% hardwork". and for me its really stupid. duh, try to ask one of the autistics to invent something like, i dont know, flying house or flying carpet, maybe? and if one of them succeeds, thats the time that i won't rebel for what every stupid things that the teacher says. woops, i can receive bricks by saying like that. LOL.
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