A girl who stumbled upon dream and reality. Because she's too lost to realize that she did not draw the line.
I was called by Janet for most all of the time, because it's my real name and because it was written on my birth certificate, but I would really appreciate it
if you call me
Sei. Because I'm too bored to hear 'Janet' and because I need some new sensation.
I was dropped to the Earth 14 years ago. I commit sins everyday because I'm not perfect and I'm just a normal human that's all.
I live in Indonesia but no, I'm not a pure Indonesian. My parents were from China but no, we can't speak those Chinese languages; whatever it is.
My life was full by emotional feelings; I'm a crybaby and I really can't help it.
I think I was loved by people around me. I do not appreciate what do you call by friendship because I believe friends will come and go as time goes by.
I do not trust my friend like I do trust them before, and this is the main reason why do I like to express my feelings through writings and not with words.
I love Korea, and I listen to K-Pop music. Cho Kyuhyun is my ultimate bias, KyuMin is my OTP and KyuHaeMin is my favorite OT3.
I write, I breathe, I walk, I talk, I hear, I jump, I dance, I do what normal people do.
What is the difference with me it's just that they know that reality and dream is different but I do not want to know.
And that is because I believe I could find my ideal boy through my dreams and reality is just too painful to deals with.
In which she believes there's no forever but there's eternal and eternity.
heyyyy you there! been a long time since i updated this blog of mine, yes? and it's fresh with new layout! *squeals* i mean skin. or template. or whatever you called it :3
am not done with the header yet, still trying to find a picture that will suits the color and its seriously so effing hard. i want to use kyumin's pict but its way to small >< and i need to squeeze my mind to find ways to make it looks pretty :3 im not that expert when it comes to photo editing you know. maybe i shouldnt take graphic design later. ;/
ah yess! i have loads to write here, but where should i start? em. let's see. from the first day of my school, shall we? ^^;;
so, there's not much thing happened when i went to school for the first day. i was still feeling awkward with other friends since it was really my first day i stepped in the class SMP-3C. kinda feel sad at first again, cos i'm not at the same class with my soulfriend, sharen. yessh i still have a few friends at my class, but seriously none of them suits my personality. one was very very veeeerrryyyyy talkative and keep babbling nonsense. if i have a power to distinguish a habit, i'll distinguish the habit of hers of talking nonsense that i dont even want to know. one was soo... yeah like that. and others? duh, they kept on talking chinese. i understand some, but not all. and i really look like a fool there cos out of 8 girls in my class (yes, only 8 out of 25 students), im the only one who has this not so good chinese. -____- vina and shirley, comeback here! DDDD:
yeah, the first week, i dont really enjoy studying in SMP-3C plus the fact that the class was so fucking noisy and it seriously kept on pissing our teacher, causing them not wanting to teach our class again. well i can say that's the fault of the teaher being so lame and stuff, there's one (now two) of teachers who talked with too soft voice, and i barely heard what she (and he) said, and that was very annoying. back to the topic, yes i dont really enjoy it for the first week but for the 2nd week, i feel like im enjoying it. 8D i can get along with the new friends there (YES! even those two bitches. they're not that bad after all) and yeah~ enjoying it ^^;;
same goes with my tuition. first day was just, i dont know, briefing? or whatever. idk cos i was late due to the dismissal of my school. so i went there at 4 20 something (the briefing was started at 4), and when i entered the so-called-class, i sit there and met my friend. all of the people at the class was staring at me with their questioning look becos im still in my school uniform. but it was kinda useless for going to that briefing though, i did nothing there. duh -_-
that was the first day, it was last Monday, and last Wednesday, we had started to study.
i get the same class with ayu, and guess what? i met my church friend there! well not close enough to him (never even talked) but whatever. he's handsome and i have a secret crush on him back when i was studying my first communion at the church. wohohoho~ and first day on my tuition class, i commit a sin, i lied. xDDD the teacher once asked us where will we continue our high school. she asked that boy, and he said he was going to Jogja. so when the teacher asked me, i answered that i want to continue my study at Jogja too! HAHAHAHAHHAA we're the only one who said that we'll continue our study at Jogja, and when I said Jogja, the teacher asked me like 'oh, you want to go there to be together with him?' LMAOLMAO *blush*. well that's not a real pure lie after all. it was true im going to Jogja just IF i wouldnt be accepted at Sedes :p hehehehe i can be slutty and bitchy if i want to. and tbh i like to catch people's attention. i believe i caught his attention on the first day. 8DD
hey and you know what? yesterday (friday), the class was re-arranged and i wasnt at the same class with him at first. but i managed to beg with my puppy eyes to the person there and she lets me move to the same class with him! and well i won't regret it too. cos on 9P1 (the class that i supposed to attend to), i got only one friend (two, actually, lets discuss this later
*) whose name was indah, and she also has a friend there named ulfa, or whatever and i believe they're close enough. so i managed to move to 9P2 cos ayu was there, and there're only two girls there, ayu and nida. i dont know who's nida and at first i kinda hesitant to move to 9P2 since this ayu girl and nida girl was studying at the same school and i was afraid that i might get ditched by ayu ):
but thanks god, NO. this ayu wasnt that close with nida cos they never had the chance to be at the same class at school. besides, ayu also helped me while begging so that i could be moved to 9P2 ;p and YES I WAS AT THE SAME CLASS WITH HIM! hahahhaa
and bytheway i didnt like him though. idk, just wanted to got his attention? or wanted one fresh-looking guy at my class. ehehehe told you he's kinda handsome, and cute :33
ah, talking about crush like that, i think i like two boys now. hehehe im not greedy nor selfish. just found those two guys were so attractive. one was so innocent and good looking too. i played eyes with him back when i was 2nd year of junior high school. hehe played eyes here means, i always teased him by staring at his eyes like i wanted to ate him when we did an eye contact. HEHEHE i dont even know him back at that time but it was seriously fun! >DDD he stared back at me and usually he was the one who threw his looks elsewhere when i stared 'hungrily' at him LMAO YOU NEED TO SEE HIS EXPRESSION. and glad we're at the same class now, bcos he's seriously hawt too 8D and kind!
the other boy, pfft. i think im more attracted with this guy rather than the one i discussed before. idk why, he's funny, he did talked to me first, he... was the first guy that treated me like he treated his boy friends (his friends who were boys, not lovers). why? he bumped his head into mine while we were having an experiment using a microscope. so the scene went like this;
we were adjusting the lens at the microscope, and when it was done, all of us wanted to see it. so we took a turn, but then this guy was too playful. so when everyone wanted to look the microscope, he bumped his head into the one who was going to look under the microscope and as a result their head bumped and none of them had the chance to look under the microscope bcos they were too busy rubbing their heads. sorry if you dint understand this cos i really sucks at explaining with words without actions. and what made it unbelievable was he did the same thing to me! you see, 14 years living in this planet called earth, none of the boys had did such things like that to me bcos they were too shy or whatever, chickens. so i was waaayy to happy plus the fact that he only did that to me! cos im the only girl there 8DD and that feeling kept growing cos he treated me.. like that yeah. too bad he has a girlfriend. *sobs at the corner*
forget it. now the girl
* she's a new student at the class. and she was way to impolite. she's too chinese and she's too discriminative. how could she wore a tank top and a short pants to the class? oh please seriously. idk about your place, but HERE, it was marked as impolite. PLUS again the fact that most of the students were moslem. im a chinese too and i'd be glad to wear short pants just IF im not at the place which was full by moslem. and actually she was at 9P1 with me, but she moved to 9P2 with me again. she was just following me, i know. =_=
oh i need to stop writing now. hahahahahahahaha this is too long!
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