A girl who stumbled upon dream and reality. Because she's too lost to realize that she did not draw the line.
I was called by Janet for most all of the time, because it's my real name and because it was written on my birth certificate, but I would really appreciate it
if you call me
Sei. Because I'm too bored to hear 'Janet' and because I need some new sensation.
I was dropped to the Earth 14 years ago. I commit sins everyday because I'm not perfect and I'm just a normal human that's all.
I live in Indonesia but no, I'm not a pure Indonesian. My parents were from China but no, we can't speak those Chinese languages; whatever it is.
My life was full by emotional feelings; I'm a crybaby and I really can't help it.
I think I was loved by people around me. I do not appreciate what do you call by friendship because I believe friends will come and go as time goes by.
I do not trust my friend like I do trust them before, and this is the main reason why do I like to express my feelings through writings and not with words.
I love Korea, and I listen to K-Pop music. Cho Kyuhyun is my ultimate bias, KyuMin is my OTP and KyuHaeMin is my favorite OT3.
I write, I breathe, I walk, I talk, I hear, I jump, I dance, I do what normal people do.
What is the difference with me it's just that they know that reality and dream is different but I do not want to know.
And that is because I believe I could find my ideal boy through my dreams and reality is just too painful to deals with.
In which she believes there's no forever but there's eternal and eternity.
i cant think of a good title for this post, so i'll just live it blank. keke and seriously, what you want to see from my blog post is not the title right ?
recently there are two boys trying to give their attention to me. one's my school friend and one's my church friend. i dont think he's my church friend since i NEVER talked to him at church. he's quiet and he seriously sucks. i admit it, he's the mostt handsome and the most attractive boy in my class *i join this freakin chrism lesson* because his face is not an Asian face like mines or other Asian ppl, he's a Caucasian. i mean, his face is. his father is a Singaporean and his mother is a Chinese from this island (Batam,red) fortunately, his face didnt sign that he's a Chinese, he's a 100% Caucasian, from his face.
i likeD him, yes using the 'D' means before, past. because he's cuteeee and i never saw a Caucasian-like boy in my church. at first i thought that this Caucasian like boy is an elementary student but it turned out wrong, he's a junior high school student like me, but a year younger than me.
he never been so kind in the church (or in the chrism class, probably). what he always did is to sit down, holding his book and stares the floor. i dont know whats so interesting with the floor, but he DID stared the floor for like an hour more. he raised his face only if been asked by the teacher, or only if he's talking to his friend. okay, maybe stares the floor doesnt sounds good. its FACING the floor, yeah, looking down.
so, like on monday, he asked my phone number from my brother, and i gave him, bcos he sounds kind *since what he did in the whole chrism class is just to faces the floor* but yeah, its wrong.
first day of texting, he texted me very often. if i didnt reply his SMS, then he'll keep texting me saying things like 'are you angry with me ?' 'im sorry'. dont you feel its cheesy ? ;/ and boring, ofc. who's angry with him? im not that type of person who really likes to text ppl, im more likely to internet, twitter, facebook, stuffs like that. and at the end, i didnt reply his SMS. he's boring.
like today and yesterday. yesterday he kept texting me saying like this like that. and i think from around 10+ message, i replied only 3-5. plus today he's texting me again. i reply none of them. but then he text me, saying like on the first day we knew each other i enjoyed texting with him but then now, i did not. and he assumed that i'm ANGRY with him (yes, again) because of yesterday's thingy. i forgot what the fuck happened yesterday, but as i remember, yes. he thought that he made me angry causing me not to reply his messageS. but seriously, i didn't.
then what did i do to him ? i replied his message thingy STATING that he's not that precious till i should reply all his messages 24/7. and i told him i'm not texting creature.
he even called me 'Mrs.Fierce'. HELLOOOOOOO ?? you seriously got to be kidding. i;m fierce i know that but should you call me like that, IDIOT ? zzzzzzzz he's getting my nerves outta the place! =_______=
he even texted my brother saying that he's lazy SMS-ing with me. YET, he still DID message me. and as a result, i didnt reply his messages. seriously i'm sick with him. SERIOUSLY. i regretted it. i regret giving my phone number to him. oh, YES. and you know what makes me FUCKIN SICK with him the most ? HE KEEP COMPARING ME WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND.
hey boy, you know what ? I DON'T GIVE A FUCK WITH YOUR GIRLFRIEND AND I NEVER INTEND TO KNOW HER. so STOP COMPARING HER WITH ME!
didn;t i tell you that i hate him ? no. okay, so I HATE HIM! i hate being compared like that. IM NOT JEALOUS OKAY. i dont even know who's his FUCKIN GIRLFRIEND and i don't even know whether if his FUCKIN GIRLFRIEND is true or he;s just saying BULLSHITS.
and fuck, i dont like you, kay ? so get out of my life! you're just making my days into BAD DAYS!
you ruined all things!
and know what ? he asked me whats my website address in my facebook's wall. CANT HE READ? hellooooo you just need to go to the info and you can see my website address there, IDIOT!
okay i think i just need to stop talking bout this hellboy. and its late alrd. so cuu~
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